ALL LIES. But subtle lies. Many times, I would begin to fall for them too, leading me into more of a depressive state, but God would pull me back. How? By helping me to realize the truth. I went back to scripture. I know that everything that happens to me God will work out for the best. I know that God is pleased with me, not because I am righteous, but because He is pleased with Christ ("behold, my Son with whom I am well pleased). And we have been covered with His Son's blood. God is pleased with me; He is not condemning of me. "There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ." However, when I sin, God is not pleased with my actions. But there is no need to despair, for: "If we are faithful and just to confess our sin God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." THIS IS TRUTH. I knew the truth, and it set me free. God pulled me out of Satan's traps, helping me to see the truth. But even though it seems so easy to resist Satan in this area, it is so hard. We know the truth, but rarely do we apply it. Rarely does our faith match our knowledge. And I find myself drifting back into that condemning, depressive state time and time again. Why? I know the truth, but I need to hear it over and over and over again. I realize this now. But I also realize more the tactics that Satan is trying to use against me. I hope and pray that God will give me the strength to withstand Satan's attacks. Sometimes I fell like I am attacked from every side by Satan's fiery darts. During these times I must remember that God is our Mighty Fortress and an ever-present help in times of trouble. This is the truth. Don't be deceived by the Deceiver. Know the truth. Apply the truth. Pray that your faith will match you knowledge. All in all, it hasn't been the easiest month in my life, but it's been a very good month for me. I feel like I have grown a lot this past month. And I'm glad I get to share it with you guys!